Can You Feel It?
Cool, collected, calm, robotic, never showing emotion—the perfect Christian, right? WRONG. In Christian culture (or perhaps just human nature), we have embedded the notion that it is not okay to feel any emotion for the sake of not being controlled by them or being weak. And instead of processing our emotions with God, and letting Him speak truth into our lives, we become fake people. Through the name and abuse of “faith,” we wear a plastered smile that covers a crumbling interior. It’s a facade that says, “everything is okay.” For me, my fake-self was birthed on a cold January morning in 2001. Whether it was cold temperature-wise, I have no idea. But the events of that day left an icy sting I still feel today. I remember sitting on the couch, watching TV as my mom was on the phone in her room. I wasn’t really paying attention to her, but overheard, “I don’t know how to tell him.” I thought nothing of it. Coming out of her room, my mom, with red a...